Diaries Of Loki's Chambermaid 7: A Man In Uniform

I think I’m in love!

Ha! Now I’ve written it, it sounds silly. But he’s really sweet and he’s nice to me and he’s actually good looking and well, all kinds of things really. He’s called Alexander and he’s the guard who has been putting up with me these last few weeks.

I (finally) was allowed to have the muzzle left off. I think Loki got the message that it was a barbaric punishment after I fainted recently because I’d not had any food or water all day. He is so inconsiderate! He put it on me, then went to an outlying village to subdue some unrest and didn’t get back until sundown and still expected me to attend him. He ignored me pointing at it because he was in a mood. I had to serve him food, which was torture then I woke up in the healing rooms. They told me Odin had brought me because I’d blacked out inexplicably.

He never apologised, but he’s not made me wear it since. I’m in the habit of being quiet around him now anyway, so refusing to talk to him because of what he did won’t make any difference!

Anyway……..  back to Alexander! We talk about everything while he escorts me around the Palace (I’m still not allowed anywhere on my own) and he’s just so lovely! It’s nice to be able to talk to him now, as I obviously couldn’t when I was gagged. I tripped the other day on the steps to Loki’s suite (Odin’s suite to everyone else, of course) and he grabbed me to stop me falling. And it made me tingle! And when I managed to straighten back up, he held on to me a bit longer than he needed to and I liked it and we looked at each other and he looked all shy and oh, it was nice!! It made me go red and him, too! I do quite like him, though – he looks so handsome in his uniform.

Then I had to go into the suite and wake him up. After he had sat there eating his breakfast, watching me tidy and clean (I wish he wouldn’t – it’s so off-putting) he asked me why I was so cheerful – as if it was a crime! I just said no particular reason. If he really wanted to know, he’d only have to look in my head anyway; although I don’t think he’s done that since that horrible day in the bath. He also told me to stop humming – I was ‘annoying him’. I hadn’t realised I was humming. He’s so grumpy!

And what can I say about him lately? He continues to be bad tempered, he’s constantly tired because of the hours he keeps and he’s increasingly withdrawing from the social side of the Palace. He rarely attends the Great Hall evening meals and social gatherings and I haven’t found a companion in his bed for a week. I think he’s miserable! I try to be pleasant towards him generally, but it’s really difficult to keep it up. And I'm afraid to say he drinks every night, whether I am there or not. I haven't had to help him to bed again yet, though.

Anyway, an exciting bit now – yay!

Alexander has asked me to accompany him to a gathering at his aunt’s house. She is a musician and she opens her house once a month for people to come along to sing and dance! I can’t wait.

I have simply to ask Loki for the night off ……………..